Birds & Bulbs

I went today to buy some new parts for my 6000WATT lighting unit. While I was waiting for the guy who sells in the store, a newly married couple in their early 20s got in. They are in their half way through building up their nest, very concerned about money, as every middle-class family in a third-world. They bought a big fluorescent bulbs set to put in the hall.

They seemed so young, innocent and confused. It was very clear in their eyes, the feeling of insecurity. Like little birds on a tree, lonely ones who get cuddled to feel safe. And to skip this cruel feeling of being lonely.

The guy asked the seller to pack the bulbs and set well. That they live far from here and they don't wanna loose the package or have it damaged on their way home. The seller didn't pay attention to what he just said. The guy looked at me, like he was asking me support. Then he took the package unsatisfied and left with his wife.

... I paid for my stuff and left!

Sunrise in the West

I had a very weird dream last night. I don't care that much about dreams. But this one seems to be significant. And I think I won't be able to forget it easily.

... At night, I'm in our old house looking through the window. Everything is dark. Everyone is scared. There might be something out there. I see what it is now... Its the sun at night. A very big sun. It's fitting in the horizon. I can see the upper part of it. I'm frightened. I got a mail package. It's money from somewhere outside. I feel worried.

The sun rises in the west! I have no idea why did I have this dream. Probably cause of my religious background. Which I was raised in a country where most people care about religion or at least they seem like that. I'm somehow not feeling comfortable. I don't have to worry it's a dream, I know! But I should give it some thought. Maybe there's something I need to be aware of.

Little Meows

As I was walking down Mohamed Ali Street I heard an insisting tiny meows. I looked around and found a very tiny kitten, it was probably just born like 4 hours earlier. I slightly approached its tiny body, I heard those meows more loudly this time. These aren't meows, it's actually screaming, asking for help! It doesn't know what it's supposed to do. It was just brought to life. Thrown into this world and left weak, hungry and scared. It was hardly moving. When I looked next to her, I found some other tiny bodies laying down randomly dead! It was horrible. Siblings are dead. flies were feeding on them. What an anguish?

I didn't know what to do? That's pathetic. I'm not a vet. I was confused what should I do? It needs a special care. I got many thoughts jammed in my mind. I got scared and confused. I was pretty helpless like that tiny kitten. I left it. and the meows were chasing me and constantly were fading out.

When I got back home I remembered works I read by Jean Paul Sartre. And imagined what if what I saw weren't cats? ...

Nature Speaks

The way to functionaize available lighting in nature is to use every possible element in the environment to draw your photographic scene. It's very wise and artistic. Rather then using artificial lighting system. Everyone can do this! Just look around what do you have? Light source, shadows, darkness, objects, animals, trees, people, skies, lands, ... There are details everywhere around. And there are more details behind every single detail. You gotta search them, study them and capture them. Know what they are saying? They must be telling something... You should figure it out. Cause it's your role as a photographer.